Pivoting is hard and this is how I REALLY feel.

I've been struggling with challenges I didn't expect since coming back from my year-long sabbatical away from social media and business, so here's a check-in on how I'm REALLY doing and what I've learned in the last couple of months... ♡ What's in this video: 00:00 My Mental Breakdown lol 00:35 Why I'm Making This Video 02:54 Why I Don't Trust Myself 06:06 How I'm Self-Sabotaging 09:05 My Old Identity Keeps Me Safe 10:38 Which parts of your past identity helped you feel safe? 11:59 Breaking the Formula 13:09 Your Nervous System Keeps You Safe 14:14 Why I Feel Frozen 17:23 Being a Student Again 18:12 Content doesn't need to be "complete" 19:16 Great Art Opens Conversation 21:03 Creating Content YOU Want to See 22:29 Being a Complete Person 25:15 180 Shifts Are Unrealistic 26:02 Being a Student of Life 26:55 Creating Content for Yourself, Not Others 27:43 Why I'm Afraid to Post 30:01 Authenticity is hard. ♡ Resources and Creators Mentioned: Amanda Bucci: https://www.instagram.com/amandabucci Creative Act Book (Rick Rubin): https://geni.us/bATQx ♡ My YouTube Equipment: Camera (Sony) ➡︎ https://geni.us/IE6Jp Camera Lens (Ultra Wide) ➡︎ https://geni.us/yoUwyf Microphone ➡︎ https://geni.us/K8APy Tripod ➡︎ https://geni.us/waoPFB Lighting ➡︎ https://geni.us/gWkHG Lantern Softbox ➡︎ https://geni.us/MAAmAz Lighting Stand ➡︎ https://geni.us/APrj Dummy Battery ➡︎ https://geni.us/nM2tiqm Bluetooth Remote ➡︎ https://geni.us/7DHX SD Card ➡︎ https://geni.us/1AQ2Wlb Vlog Camera (DJI) ➡︎ https://geni.us/mebO0 Vlog SD Card ➡︎ https://geni.us/RlKvM Check out ALL my equipment here: https://kit.co/vanessalau.co ♡ Products: 📷 Shop all my YouTube gear: https://kit.co/vanessalau.co 👚 Shop all my clothes & lifestyle: https://www.shopltk.com/explore/vanessalau ♡ YouTube Optimization Tools I Use: https://www.tubebuddy.com/vanessalauco Use “vanessasbuddy” to get 20% off all licenses ♡ Stay Connected: ♥️ Subscribe to my channel for more: https://www.youtube.com/vanessalau?sub_